omg i can definitely relate to this…

ck3:

It’s not easy living a double life. I started living it ever since I was se7en. It’s interesting though to have that constant awareness that I’m living two lives that not a lot of people know. There are things that I have experienced in life that I wish I could share but then again, who could possibly relate? instead I store it in a box inside my heart, and isolate everything else from it and every single day, I go back to that box. open it. look at it. and remind myself this is why I am me, and this is why I am pursuing the things I truly believe in with the people I believe in. I wish i could be normal, like most people - where they just worry about simple things in life instead of worry about questions that will flip their life upside down…I am counting down the days, the hours, minutes, and seconds as they pass by, cherishing every moment because that’s all I got. Living a double life also gave me the perk of having two sets of emotions. An emotion for whats in the box, and an emotion for the rest of the world. The emotion for my box is my base line and it’s constantly beating wherever I go and whatever I do. While the emotion for the rest of the world, fluctuates accordingly to other people’s frequencies whether its constructive or destructive. I am excited for whats to come in the future…for what lies ahead of me, but to move on I need to take care of my past, take care of myself and everything around me. seems like life has engulfed me.

To 150 mph into the future & to time machine so I could turn back time one day.